Thanks sniper-t and bacpacker! I know I've been absent as of late from the forum. They've switch me up at work to managing the midnight shift and I can seem to find a proper 'me time' schedule. My last trip grounded me some again though, and i was able to put some things back into perspective... First being eff the system... It should be last on my list of priorities. Second take care of my mental and physical needs, then those of my family. Everything else after that is gravy. And I missed the forum, it's nice to have a non-judgemental place to talk with like minded folks, no matter what spectrum they may lay their heads.