Originally Posted by
Stormfeather
So, on my way to florida right now, hope to be there in another 6-7 hours. This drive is dumb stupid ridiculous.
Before you guys start offering all the condolences, please read this first. heres the background on her. She adopted me back when I was 5-6 years old. I can honestly say, thats probably the only good thing she ever did for me. Im trying and trying to find a way to be sympathetic about her passing, but for some reason, I cant, Does that make me a bad person? She wasnt a nice person, she wasnt friendly, she wasnt "grandmotherly" in any way shape or form. She disowned my father, and myself, and our other adopted brother and left everything to this gay kid who lives down the street from her. Its not that any of that even really bothers me, because it doesnt so much, I lost out on my grandfathers shotgun, and my silver coin collection I had built up as a kid, but Im ok with that. The part im upset about, is she went and did a reverse mortgage on her house, so now her house is going to the bank, she had a couple of pawn tickets on her car so it will get repossessed here at some point. Its old, so that doesnt matter. But she basically spent every single penny she had and sold off everything of value in the entire family. So all of the heirlooms are gone, all the family history is gone, and the kid who she left everything too, doesnt have clue one about what to do. He is having a problem with talking to the funeral home and doesnt want to, so now theres delays in getting the final arrangements taken care of, and he basically doesnt know what to do. Out of all of this, im more upset over the fact that all of my pictures of me as a kid, are all gone. I dont have a single picture of me as a kid or of me growing up. She had them all. I now have no way of showing my kids what I looked like when I was kid, and im kind of really bummed out about that.
Before you all think im some sort of jackwad who turns his back on his family, this woman basically disowned us, and would not for any reason let us come take care of her or do anything for her. Ive tried and tried many times to touch base with her and reconnect, and Ive always been rebuffed.
Im really of a mind to turn this truck around and head back home and out her memory in the rearview mirror. Am I a bad person for thinking this way?
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